Re: BlackBird Spiral

[Xuxa_Rene]

Justin paged a nurse and he asked for his cellphone it was brought to him. He called Felix's number. "Felix, please call me when you get this, I am worried about you" The doctor came in so he couldn't continue. "Just please I need to talk to you" He then hung up. The doctor went over to him and checked him out.
"So where is that handsome fellow that was here before?" Justin blushed. "I am not sure, think he had to go to work" The doctor nodded. "No shame here" Justin licked his lips and winced as he was prodded. The doctor patted his shoulder. "We will keep you for a couple days, hopefully to give time for the man to come back, and the media to clear out" He then left and Justin tried calling Felix again.

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"I'm not here to play games and I'm not here to harass you. I just want a clean cut deal and that's it" Felix began once he was prompted to take a seat in front of the boss. He had removed his shoes and walked over to the small cushion that laid before the boss. "A man who knows what he wants, I admire that. So first off don't you think you should introduce yourself" the boss asked and Felix just smile. "I don't really think names are important right now, especially since I am not sticking around long enough" he explained and that seemed irritate the boss. "So be it for now. What is this deal you want to talk about?"

Felix took a shallow breath and pulled the leather bag in front of himself for the boss to see. "I have a debt with you that I inherited from my family. I have paid most of it off in payments but I have come here to finish that off so that way I may be cut loose to live my life" he started off and the boss looked at the simple leather bag. He then looked back to Felix "I'm having a hard time believe that your debt is the only reason you risked your life to come here" "Very true sir...you have one under you called Blaine. I would like for something to be done about him" the boss seemed to smile from ear to ear at the request. "You come to me to pay off your debt only to willingly place yourself back in my debt. You have nothing to bargain with."

The boss was right about all of it, Felix had hoped that they could come to some kind of arrangement. "You've lied to me, snuck around and have manipulated my men...there may be something else you have to bargain with" the boss told him but Felix didn't like the sound of his voice. "What did you have in mind?" Felix asked hesitantly "You. I could use a man like you" now that was something he wasn't expecting, no one wanted him and yet now there were three people who did. "If my demands are met then I am willing to entertain the idea" Felix told him and that also seemed to catch the bosses attention "You have guts but I see potential in you."

From that point Felix and the boss worked out a deal with each other though he couldn't believe that the boss was going along with it. He had to have an ulterior motive for being this cooperative. In the midst of making the deal Felix felt his phone vibrate but he didn't dare answer it because that could look bad in front of the boss, he would just have to check it later and hope that it was nothing bad.

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Thank to the meds Justin fell asleep. It wasn't a restful sleep though. It was filled out nightmares, his past life, and now Felix mixed in with it, telling him that he was nothing, that he had just done it all for the money, and now that his debt was paid he didn't need him any more. He woke with a start with a nurse over him with a cold cloth. "You're running a fever, try to get some rest okay"

Justin shook his head. "Nightmares" he whispered ashamed. He wanted someone to cuddle with, he had been with Felix all weekend and that was all he needed to know that it was what he wanted for his whole life, he had enough money for Felix to quit the club unless he wanted that. now he had nothing, only because he had been stupid and gone to seek revenge without help.

"Has my phone rang at all??" He asked the nurse.

[Ekstaze]

It took little over two hours before they came to an agreement but Felix was satisfied with the outcome. He could travel as much as he wanted, get the hell out of this town, Blaine was going to pay for what he did and Justin would be protected from further beatings or even being killed. The only problem, he was now part of the yakuza even if it was just as a consult or to help a contract go smoothly. At least he didn't have to sleep with anyone for money anymore...or at least he had hoped that the contract would play out like that. "It was a pleasure doing business with you" Felix told his now boss after bow his head to him. "As well you. You're debt is cleared and you can pick up your new cell phone, passport and credit card tomorrow. Anything else you need you just have to ask" the boss told him.

With that all settled Felix left the house with a plan in mind to pack up his apartment and suit case of clothes. At least that was one thing he didn't need to get for his new job because the clothes that he wore for being a host fit in pretty well to the attire that the yakuza wore but he would have to go and get some street clothes so if he didn't want attention he could blend in.

It was easy to walk out of the house, more so then he thought he could do but after walking just outside the building's property he pulled his phone out and looked at who called. 'He's awake' Felix thought to himself and had to force himself not to smile. He waited until he was inside a cab once more before he called the club and quit, Felix didn't even want to step foot into that place anymore and for a little bit he would have to be careful about his outings until Blaine was taken care of. "Hospital please" Felix had to make one last stop before he disappeared, he had to see with his own eyes that Justin would be alright before he left.

Pulling up to the hospital there were still several reporters out front so Felix decided to have the cab drop him off a block before the entrance. "Thanks" he called to the cabbie and got out. He secured his sunglasses in place and made his way towards the hospital and at least this time he wasn't frantic about going inside nor trying to find Justin. He just calmly walked into the hospital and towards Justin's room, it wasn't long before he was standing at the door just staring inside. As he stood there thoughts passed through his head telling him that this probably wasn't the best idea, a clean break was better but he couldn't bring himself to do that. Felix had to let Justin know that he was going to be safe from now on and that nothing would be able to touch him, ever. "Hello Justin" Felix said softly after entering the room.

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The nurse checked the phone "No sorry" Justin nodded and turned over. "I am sorry I don't want to be rude I just really want to be alone right now" The tears were building up in his eyes and mercifully the nurse left. Justin then shamefully let the tears fall. "Why are you crying you fool, you were just money to him" He whispered to himself. He felt like a utter fool. He had be warned it was nothing more, but the man had broken so many rules for him why not break this rule too? Clearly he had more important men in his life. Blaine seemed to make that clear.

He turned to the force and although he was crying he smiled. "Felix, you are okay I was so worried" Which was funny since both Justin eyes were now black and his face was swollen his lips fat but he looked happy to see Felix. "Coming in?" He asked pointing to a chair.

[Ekstaze]

He thought it was odd that Justin was worried about his safety when he was the one that got beaten up. Felix stepped further into the room and over to the chair next to the bed. "Of course I'm fine but you shouldn't be worried about me. You were the one who was attacked" Felix told him and relaxed into the chair. "I hope your recovery is coming along fast, I was hoping that I would still be able to see you at one of your swim meets" Felix told him with a smile.

He wasn't sure if he was still going to go to one but he wanted to lift Justin's spirit because it looked like he was really depressed about something. He hoped that Justin wasn't worried about being beaten up again or whatever the media was going to do however Felix was never one to be in the spotlight so he didn't know what would really happen.

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Justin whipped his eyes but just ended up wincing. "I was worried that you took off" He looked down at himself "I do look pretty ugly right now" He watched as he sat down. "They roughed up my sister, I went to find out why, didn't turn out how I wanted to" He smiled "You still want to come" He reached out and grasped his hand. "I thought that since your debt was so close to being paid off you..." He trailed off "Wouldn't want to see me again" He frowned and looked up at him.

"Of course I want you to come to the swim meet it would be great" He laid his head down on the bed. "Where did you go?

[Ekstaze]

Justin's words tore at his heart and Felix wanted to stick around so bad for him but things were going to get so much worse if he stuck around. If he left then Justin's like could go back to normal or at least the normal it was before Felix messed it up. Maybe the media would spin their own version of the story, Felix had heard something about it being a hate crime and if it was spun that way at least it wouldn't hurt Justin too bad. However if Felix stuck around the media would get wind of it and make it out to be a bad thing that Justin and him were together. He was a host with being gay on top of that and Justin was a famous athlete and going to be forced to admit that he was gay. So what did Felix do, stay so that way Justin would smile at him like he did before or leave so that Justin didn't have to hurt in the long run.

"I would never just leave and besides you are a great person. I'm glad that I was even able to meet you, let alone be able to get this close to another person" Felix squeezed his hand a little bit hoping to reassure Justin that what they had was special even to him. Maybe running away was more for him then it was for Justin, maybe Felix really didn't want to be hurt again or lose someone he cared about. Besides if Justin found out what he had done to make him safe forever then Justin would probably just hate him.

"Justin look...I will always be in debt. That is just the life I'm supposed to have apparently however no amount of money will be enough to pay it off" that was close to what he really wanted to tell him. "I had a meeting with someone to square away a deal to make sure that your attacker suffers and so that you will be safe from now on."

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Something was wrong Justin could sense it. He was going to lose Felix. He guess it was for the best, he had spent so much time with him that his career had to suffer, and it was clear that Blaine liked him, his condition was proof enough for that. He looked up at this man, the first man that had been able to touch him. He was losing him. He knew that look, had seen it in the foster parents eyes before they told him that he and his sister were being moved. Yep he was defiantly leaving him.

He tried to smile and touched the other man's face then bite his lip. "Felix you cant shit me, I am a product of the system I know that face, You have that look that those few good homes had you have the look that they had when they came to tell me my worker was coming to collect me and my sister and we were moving so what is going on?"

He gasped as Felix went on. "Felix no, why did you do that?" His eyes whelled up with tears. "Why did you do that" He looked up at him. "What does the debt entail?" He let the tears fall now. He loved this man and he knew now that he was going to be forever alone.

[Ekstaze]

Felix had expected Justin to yell at him, not break his heart even further. He wanted to say it was for the best but even Felix couldn't know that right now. He was also shocked to find out he wasn't that good of an actor or at least when it came to Justin he wasn't. "I'm sorry to hear that you have been through the system and had to suffer that kind of rejection..." Felix finally got to his feet, he couldn't just sit there while he said all this nor heard any of it.

"Justin I did this because I care about you...no in fact you are the first person that I have loved since the murder of my entire family. It seems that you have given me back something that I never thought I would have again" Felix had tears in his eyes from seeing Justin's tears fall, this was harder then he thought. He never should have come here, Felix knew now that he should have just disappeared when he had the chance. "You are a light in my life. You have a loving family, a respectable job with a future and as promised, you have been cured of your fear of being touched...there is no room for this stained creature in such a pleasant life" Felix explained to Justin and then leaned over, giving Justin a kiss on the forehead. "I look forward to seeing many of your swim meets" That was the last thing Felix told Justin and then he pulled out a rather large and thick yellow envelope with Justin's name on the front. Felix didn't look back at Justin after that and walked out of the room. He thought it was best to leave Justin's other questions unanswered because he didn't need to know the answers to them.

"I knew you would come back to see him" Dr. Wilson came walking up to Felix just as he replaced his sunglasses over his eyes. He really didn't want to talk to anyone right now, not after the conversation he had with Justin. "You won't be seeing me again" Felix commented lowly and turned away from the doctor to leave. "Hold up a sec. What do you mean by that? You two are-" "We are nothing. I told you that, we were merely friends and I stress the word 'were' end of story. Now don't you have patients to attend to" Felix cut the doctor off and then continued on his way out of the hospital before anyone else decided to stop him.

((Hope that was ok. I've got a few things in mind and probably another time jump. What are your thoughts?))

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Justin didn't like where any of this was going. He watched the man stand and bit is lip. He shook his head as he went on. "Felix no, I don't want you to go, I would give it all up for you in a heat beat" It was all for naught he was leaving him. He cried out as he left. Then turned his back to the door and refused to talk, or eat for days.

"Justin?" A small timid voice called out, he finally turned. They broke through him using his sister. Jessa came forward and looked at her brother, the protector the strong one wasting away on the bed. She climbed into bed with her brother. Justin laid with his sister. "Justie" He laughed at the pet name, "You gotta get better, I'm scared" Justin sighed and nodded. "Alright"

It took a few weeks for Justin to be able to swim like he had before, his injured ribs slowly came back. He had lied to the Media said that he had just been at the wrong place at the wrong time. When asked about the man that brought him he looked into the camera with love in his eyes, the look he only gave Felix, a small half smile. "He was just a good Samaritan that was at the wrong place too but and the right time. He was gone now, and he didn't know where he was.

6 weeks later he was doing his swim meet, the first one since he got beat up. He was still getting harassed in the locker room. So had started to come already in his swimming stuff. He won his heat so he moved on to the next one. He placed 2nd over all, but in the end the person in third place argured that he had gotten there frist, so after a review it was found out that he finished 1st. He hugged his family. He scanned the audience for Felix, but was sure that he was gone. His body had healed but not his heart. It was still broken, it had gone back to before. Only Jessa could touch him. Even Dr. Wilson needed Jessa there to exmim him.

[Ekstaze]

Felix made it back to his apartment with no further interruptions, well that was until he got to the building. Standing in front of his door was Blaine and he looked pretty pissed but that didn't bother Felix like it had before. Not to mention the fact that he now had two body guards from the group with him and Blaine couldn't touch him. Once Blaine saw the other two with Felix he backed off and let him passed into his own apartment but stayed out on the porch with the other two. He packed several things up and then walked out of the place with two suit cases and a backpack "How does it feel to have everything you have known ripped from you...now you know a fraction of my life" Felix hissed in Blaine's direction and just left.

From there Felix was escorted onto a plane with just one of the bodyguards while the other returned to the main house. He hadn't planned on staying in that town for too much longer and knew that he was breaking a promise he gave to Justin but in time the guy would get over him or hate him. Either one that Justin did, Felix was fine with.

In no time at all Felix found himself in New York city, it wasn't his choice to be there but he had chosen a place far from his hometown to get away that he was allowed to go. Though he was still pretty much on call and would pick up and leave whenever he was told. But this was a welcome relief from his life before, he could go out and spend money on himself, enjoy the pleasures that only the elite got to and he could boss around a few people just as long as he listened to his boss. Life was pretty good for him now but there was still one thing missing, he wanted to share all of this with just one person.

"Valko, sir. We've arrived at the hotel" the words seemed hesitant to his ears but Felix turned to the kid that had been assigned to him and just smirked. Felix waved to the kid to get out of the limo so that he may exit and after that there were several people who stopped to stare at him. Not many people got to be this close to a Yakuza without running for their lives however what most of them didn't know was that he was just a consultant for the most part but almost all the luxuries the others did. Felix just ignored most of them and headed off to his room, he didn't want to be bothered for the rest of the night. "Make sure the hotel knows to leave me alone, got it runt" Felix told the kid and watched him practically jump out of his skin. He knew that he was being pretty mean and harsh to the kid but he didn't want to be taken advantage of by the yakuza anymore and thus had to change his personality that everyone saw however behind closed doors and alone he was the same old Felix.

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Although he knew that Felix wouldn't be there Justin was still saddened. He knew that he was just trying to help him get on with his life but Justin wanted Felix. Jessa looked up at her brother worried. She knew that the nightmares were back, that Justin had moved into the pool house, not to be able to practise swimming some more but because he didn't want the family to know that the nightmares were back. She had helped him change his sheets one night, that were drenched with sweat. Had laid with him like they were children again.

Justin smiled for his family and joined them for dinner. He leaned back after eating. When they got home Jessa and Justin sat in the hottub. "So whats wrong" Justin sighed. "Just thought I had found someone special, and he was special, so special that he gave up everything for me, including me"

Jessa hugged her brother then sat with him. "Thank you Jessa" Justin murmered then laid his head on her shoulder and relaxed.

Soon they went inside and watched a movie. Justin tried one last message. "I am sorry, I miss you" He texted it to Felix then set his phone done and snuggled in and watched the movie. They both fell asleep but no nightmares came this time Jessa kept them away.

[Ekstaze]

Laying in the room staring up at the ceiling had him only thinking about the past, it had been several weeks and he was still clinging to his old life. He still talked with his old boss who had begged him to come back numerous times but Felix turned him down every time. The only problem about keeping his old phone was the fact that it was still connected to that one person who he was trying to get over.

Once again sleep eluded Felix but he still got out of bed and went about his normal routine now. He dressed in a white fitted formal suit, styled his hair and his new signature sunglasses. Even in the few weeks of changing his schedule his skin was barely starting to get a tint of brown to it. However boss wanted him to stay mainly in a white suit even though it washed his skin out more, they were trying to spin the angelic look with Felix and he didn't mind. That just meant he could play the part of a sweet, gentle guy and still get clients to sign contracts without having to sleep with them.

Felix made his way down to the lobby of the hotel where the brat was waiting for him. "Hey boss. How'd you sleep?" The kid asked, seemed like something changed his demeanor but not enough because Felix could see there was something behind the kids eyes that he wanted to say. However Felix waited till they were in the limo before he inquired about the information the kid had "The Boss contacted me last night and told me to have you return home. The contract here seems to have gone under and they need you back home" he was told quickly and Felix gritted his teeth. He had barely been gone two months and they were already having him return. "Did you explain to him that I was not going back unless necessary" Felix told the kid and he shook his head sharply "So what's the necessity that I have to go back to that place?" The kid looked like he wanted to shrugged his shoulders but kept still "Pardon the phrasing but all I was told was to make sure your ass was on the next plane out of New York."

Felix sighed heavily and realized that they were already almost to the airport 'Just great, the little punk tells me now after I've already dressed for a meeting' Felix really didn't want to sit on a plane in his white suit for that long. "I hope you have prepared another outfit for me" "Yes sir." Felix got the new schedule from the kid though he practically had to pull teeth.

On the flight home Felix was thinking about several things though he refused to let his brain think about one thing in particular. He was occupying his brain with what his next meeting or contract was going to be and what he was going to say to the boss once he saw him.

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When he woke in the morning there was no new messages. Felix was done with him, maybe it was all about the money for him, Justin had paid him well. He got up and did his laps, 400 way more then usual but he was using his heart brokenness to be able to work harder. He broke for a lunch break then went back swimming.

Jessa watched her brother and stole her brothers cell phone and texted the only number in there other then family. Then texted a message of her own: "I DONT DO WHAT YOUR DEAL IS, But you broken the heart of my brother, his nightmares are back, he is abusing his body, working too hard, he wouldn't like me sending this so he doesn't know but I am getting him a new phone today so he will hopefully move on, you gave something to me brother that I thought he would never have, then you took it from him, I don't care your reasoning, he is blaming himself" She paused to make sure Justin was not looking at her. "I am the only one that can touch him again, he is thinking of coming out to the media, he has a try out for the Olympic team in a couple days, its the first test to see if he can make it" She paused again in her typing then continued "I know this doesn't make sense but I am scared for my brother, he is working out too much that he is wasting away." She caught Justin getting out of the water, he was a lot thinner then he was a while ago and sickily looking. "He is working out too much but is nearly starving himself hope your happy with yourself, and if you got that deal for me, it wasn't worth it if my brother dies, I recived worse then a little roughing up good bye" She took the picture then added it to the message. It was likely going too far but she was desperate to save her brother She then hit enter.

She went up to Justin. "Hey lets go to the mall, I need a new dress and your my best choice for it, then I think you need a new phone"

Justin looked a little surprised but then got the idea "Yeah I think that is a good idea, maybe a good movie or something" He went out happily with his sister after changing. He took her shopping to get dresses. It was odd to be at the mall but he simply let Jessa enjoy herself, he knew what she was doing so tried to go along with it!

[Ekstaze]

Back in his hometown he just stood outside the airport and looked around. He really didn't want to be back in this place but he had changed quite a bit since he left, Felix had toned his body even more, so his suits fit nicely to his now muscled body. He had cut his hair shorter but not more then an inch so his hair was still relatively long and the sun made his hair look like golden strands. "Your limo sir" someone pulled up to Felix and he just nodded his head.

He knew the moment he got into that limo that he would be taken to the main house but Felix wasn't ready to go there yet. The flight had been long however he slept most of it but Felix was still human and he was hungry. "I would..." he started but then his phone started to ding and it wasn't just one. He waited for the phone to stop dinging before he looked at the message.

"That bitch" he said softly to himself and just tosses his phone somewhere in the back of the limo. He would get it later "Is everything alright sir?" The limo driver asked as Felix rubbed his temples "Just fine. Would you stop at the cafe at the next block, I would like to get something to eat" Felix told the guy and his face seemed to go white "I have orders to bring you directly to the main house" "I don't care what they told you. I don't want to go there right now" the limo driver nodded his head and quickly pulled off the main street and parked. "Thank you. I will be done in a little bit. You can drive around or take a break I don't care, just come when I call you" Felix told him and exited the limo then brushed his suit in place. He disregarded the looks he got and walked into the cafe which only seemed to stir more panic "We'll get the money soon, please don't shut us down! We were told we could have the extension!" Some guy ran up to him screaming and Felix stood there staring down at the guy "I'm only here for lunch, nothing more" he told the guy in a low tone and some color returned to his face "Oh, well please have a seat anywhere you like" Felix was told and he walked passed the guy to take a seat near the window that looked out onto main street.

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Jessa was happy being out with Justin. They both bought some new clothes Justin bought some new shirts and shorts, then bought some sunglasses. He put on his new outfit. Sure it showed how much weight he had lost but he didn't care. It wasn't like anyone looked at him anymore. He wore a tank top and boarder shorts with new sandals.

Jessa wore a long sundress that fell just below her knees with sandals she also wore sunglasses as both of them had dark circles under their eyes from lack of sleep. They went to the phone place next, his new phone would be ready the next day.

Next they had some lunch. After calling home to check in, they went to a movie. Anyone watching them closely would notice the two men that followed them. Shadowing them, protecting them. They ate in a courtyard just outside the café.

After they were done, well Jessa done and Justin picking at his food until Jessa pleaded with him to eat they stood and headed off to the movie. Jessa looked around and sighed. She only had to get him through the next 24 hours and he would have a new phone and hopefully move on from Felix.

She doubted he would even show up at the next swim.

[Ekstaze]

Things weren't what he had expected, this lifestyle was nothing like he saw from the other men that visited him. Well Blaine was the main person who always harassed him but still this life may have been better then what he used to have but there were still things that he couldn't obtain. Felix still wasn't free, that was the biggest thing that he still craved.

"How was your lunch sit?" His waitress came up to him with a timid expression and he just gave her a small smile. "It was delightful" he told her after handing her the bill back with his payment and his smile grew a little more. He had paid way over the amount that it actually was and hoped she didn't notice till after he was gone. Felix may be apart of the Yakuza but unless he was being watched like a hawk, he didn't play the bad guy all the time. With his bill taken care of Felix got to his feet and left the cafe. Something he hadn't expected to see was the one guy he couldn't get off his mind "Can't be him" he softly said and pulled his phone out to call for the limo.

Before he knew it Felix started to walk over to the one he suspected was Justin. "That's far enough" a guy in a black suit grabbed his arm pulling him away from his target. "Excuse me" Felix snapped and turned around ready to punch the guys lights out. "Mr. Valko, I'm sorry. We had no idea you were back in town" the guy dropped his grip on Felix's arm and backed away. 'So that is Justin' he thought to himself "We've been keeping an eye on him as ordered but I'm not sure how much longer that's going to be" Felix was told and he couldn't even disagree with them, Justin did look a lot worse then he had imagined. "It looks like your ride is here sir" Felix looked up to see the limo pulling up to the cafe "Inform me of his schedule asap" Felix told them "Sir?" They both asked him and he pulled down his sunglasses to look both of them directly in the eye "You heard me" with that he slowly made his way over to the limo.

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Jessa saw someone coming toward them so rushed Justin away, she didn't know who it was but she had been really jumpy since the attack so anyone rushing too close to her caused her to panic. Justin turned around and noticed what seemed to be a little commotion. He wanted to see what it was about but Jessa ushered him to the movies.

His guards looked at each other "He doesn't do much but work out and swim" They said to each other as the limo pulled away. They called some people and found out he had a team rehersal the next day at 2pm and then a private till 5 then a media spot opening a new bowling alley at 7. In two days was his first Olympic tryout day. They called Felix with all this info. Then quickly followed the rest of the security team to the theatre.

Jessa and Justin watched the movie then headed home. Justin jumped into the pool and swam for an hour straight as Jessa laid in a floatie moving around the pool watching worriedly.

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Felix was thankful that he was informed of Justin's schedule though it wasn't helping the fact that he was trying to forget about the guy but he couldn't help but remembered that he had promised Justin that he would be at his swim meets. He knew that he probably already missed several of them but was happy to find out that Justin was going for the Olympics and that was going to be something he didn't want to miss. Felix just had to work out being there without Justin seeing him but maybe it wouldn't be so bad for him to talk to Justin again. Find out why the guy was letting himself waste away and figure out why all his work to get Justin comfortable with others touching him just went out the window.

The limo had pulled up at the main house shortly after his encounter with Justin and even though the welcome home from everyone was nice he did not like what he heard from the boss. "You know that's not part of my contract nor was that agreed upon" Felix argued and he knew the whole house could hear him and the bosses discussion. "It may not have been at the time but we really need this contract and it is in your best interest to do everything you can to seal this deal" Felix gritted his teeth together, he really didn't want to go back to his old ways to get what he wanted. There were better things to do to get things then this way. "Isn't there anyone else that can do this?" Felix asked still standing near the door to the room. "You were asked for personally" the boss told him and that brought a whole new light to this situation "I'll think about it" with that Felix left the room, no one would ever think of doing that with the boss but if the boss needed his help that much then that meant he could get away with more however there was also something else he was risking by not blindly listening.

At least he said that he would think about it and think he would do. This was a big decision on his part not to mention if he was asked for personally then that meant it was someone from his past looking for him. Felix made his way to his private quarters in the house and even though there were others living there they were no were to be found. Probably too scared to even poke their heads out because of the 'fight' that just happened. Inside his room Felix sat on his bed after turning the tv on and to the first news channel that popped up. He was still trying to figure out the perfect time to actually talk to Justin again, if at all.

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As Justin swam and basically abused his body more the news was running a special on him. Talking about how a young man from a bad past who was adopted had come so far. They talked about his beating, and speculated that although everyone talked about how it was about him just in the wrong place at the wrong time the reporters were saying it was a hate crime and that there were rumors that he was gay.

Justin meanwhile had moved from the pool into a quick shower then turned on a movie and watched it with Jessa. Sleep was hard but it came eventually. The next morning he dressed for his practice and went to the pool. Jessa watched from the stands and as did the body guards, two were ordered from his family she didn't see the other ones though.

Justin was getting hell from his team still they didn't want someone like him in the same pool. They were being asses claiming to be afraid of AIDS. He just pushed passed them and then did his practice. His medical team checked him out though and even tested him for drugs. All came back negative but he was warned that if he lost too much weight he would be taken to the hospital for care.

When everyone else left Justin continue until his coach told him to clear out and get some good food. He sighed and got dressed since he was alone in the dressing room apart from the guards Then him and Jessa went out for lunch. Shortly after Justin got to the bowling alley, he was done all up and then cut the ribbon.

It was now 740 and he looked around for Jessa to see what she wanted to do.

[Ekstaze]

Felix's day was pretty packed, he had to visit several businesses and try to come to an agreement then he showed up at some smaller businesses to talk to them about their payment. He hated to shake down people that were already poor but if he didn't keep up the appearance that he was part of a gang then he would get the beating him. However unknown to the group Felix would pay some of the payments in place of the other people to give them more time. It was hard to keep a life in this town when half of it was run by the yakuza.

He now found himself just wandering around the town, Felix had stopped briefly at the bowling alley but not long enough to see the person he was seeking out. Some would have told him that he was being childish but it was hard to explain his situation. There were still some things he couldn't get over and one of them was the fact that he hadn't been with another man since Justin and he was beginning to reach his limit.

Felix got confirmation of where Justin was at right now but the only problem with that was the fact that his sister was still at his side. He knew that if he walked up to Justin that she would probably tear into him and she didn't know the whole story or at least didn't care to acknowledge the whole story. He sighed heavily and sat at a cafe near the bowling ally on a outside patio. He had just ordered a coffee and was keeping his attention on the street, maybe there would be an opportunity for him to steal Justin away to talk to him but all he could do for now was wait and see what happened. His sunglasses firmly in place as he sipped at his coffee and watched as several people hurried along their way once their eyes settled on him.

[Xuxa_Rene]

Justin found his sister who was surrounded by her friends. At the last moment Jessa had been invited to help him cut the rope so Jessa although looked nervous was wanting to go out with her friend. Justin promised not to do any swimming without her, Jessa was worried and wanted to make sure that Justin had her close by. Justin smiled kissed his sister goodbye then made sure one of the guards went with her. He only knew of the two that his family had employed he didn't know about the other ones.

He changed back into his clothes then put on his glasses, he was worried the makeup had washed off showing the black eyes from lack of sleep. He crossed the street ordered a coffee and then to make Jessa happy a bowl of porridge. He snapped a picture and sent it to her then started to pick at it with a spoon. His guard sat near by and the ones that he didn't even know about sat closer to Felix. He sighed and tried to eat it.

[Ekstaze]

Felix watched Justin intently waiting to see if he would even notice him but it seemed like he didn't. Felix noted the two guards and they nodded their heads towards him. He just lifted one of his hands slowly telling them that he saw Justin but didn't want them to do anything. He knew that it was a big risk having Justin watched with the other guards but this was his way of knowing that Justin would always be safe.

Now the question was did he walk up to Felix and just start talking to him or did he hang back and wait for Justin to come to him however that plan could back fire. Did Justin even want to still talk to him, did he want to acknowledge his existence anymore and did he even know what Felix was now? He had several questions that could only be answered by taking a step towards reconnecting with Justin.

Felix finished off his coffee and got to his feet making several of the other patrons scoot away from him. 'Can't seem to get used to that' Felix thought to himself because every time he saw someone back away from him it hurt. With a slight shrug of his shoulders to make him feel better he walked up to where Justin was sitting. "Mind if I sit with you?" Felix asked softly.

[Xuxa_Rene]

Justin was picking at his meal but he just didn't have much of an apatite. He had to eat though. His guards were worried about him too. He drank his coffee and sighed. Nothing was going right, sure he was able to try out for the 0lympics but no one from his team was talking to him. He was scaring his sister and he knew. Maybe Felix had it right, just disappear right, maybe it was for the best.

He was so lost in thought he didn't notice the man join him when he spoke he jumped a foot off his feet. His guards having seen him didn't react but Justin stared at the man through his sunglasses. "Felix?" He asked softly. He looked around. "What are you doing here?" He asked he couldn't keep his hurt from his voice. "You left, found better things" He said.

He went to walk away but was too weak. "Lets find somewhere else a little more private" He nodded to his gaurds who got up and pressed a botton on their phone. Justin walked away with the aid of his guards got into his limo and turned to see if Felix had followed him.

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