Re: BlackBird Spiral

[Ekstaze]

Felix jerked backwards for a second when Justin jumped, he hadn't meant to scare the guy though he didn't even know that Justin wasn't all there. He had to keep a smile from coming to his face when Justin did recognize him but then had to spot himself from snapping at the guy for his comment of finding better things. Felix couldn't believe that Justin would think that, he thought that he had explained it to him when he left. 'Must be that brat sister of his' he thought to himself.

He watched as Justin got up and started to walk away, he wasn't really wanting this to go any further. Felix just wanted to talk to him for a little bit, nothing that required privacy but he looked over and saw his own limo pulling up. 'That's right, I still have to give boss an answer' he thought to himself after making a mental note to call his boss later.

The next step was did he follow Justin and get into the limo with him, how would it look to others that a yakuza was getting into a star athletes limo, how many reporters were in the area not to mention paparazzi.Felix straightened his suits coat and stood to his full height before he walked over to Justin's limo and got in. Once the door closed Felix barely turned his head in Justin's direction, not to be rude but because he wasn't sure how much onslaught he was going to get from the guy "I figured you'd rather give me a tongue lashing in public though if you want to rip into me that's fine but I'm sure you won't be able to top what your sister said to me" Felix informed Justin before he could say anything.

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Justin just wanted to be out of the public eye. He did guess that a few pictures would be taken but right now he didn't care he just wanted to talk to him, alone. He rubbed his eyes they were swollen and looked like he had black eyes but it was simply from lack of sleep. He leaned back and sighed waiting to see if this man would actually follow him into his limo.

When he finally got in he looked to him. "That was wrong of me to say, and I am sorry" He removed his glasses and looked up at him. He wrinkled his brows. "What do you mean what my sister said to you?"

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Felix was a little relieved when Justin didn't just start screaming at him but by the looks of the guy, he wasn't sure if he had the strength too. That made him sad to see Justin's condition and couldn't help but feel that it was his fault, but part of him knew it wasn't. He wasn't the one who forced Justin to not eat, or sleep or whatever else he wasn't doing. He just did what he thought was best at the time for both him and Justin.

He waved his hand tell Justin not to worry about what his sister said and finally turned fully to face Justin. Felix also removed his sunglasses and rested them in one of his coat pockets. "You're sister is just being protective and I can't blame her for what she said...yes it was a little out of line on her part but I'm sure she only meant to do the right thing" he sighed a little bit, it was getting a little harder to be in this close of space with Justin but now that they were here Felix hoped it would get better. "You don't have to apologize. You have every right to be mad at me, I broke a promise to you...so if you want, yell at me" Felix told him but that was probably because he would rather have Justin hate him then feel depressed.

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Justin looked at the man. "No what ever she said wasn't okay, but she is very worried about me I just cant bring myself out of this funk" He paused and looked up at him "What did I do wrong, was it getting beaten up?" He paused "I could have given you more money or less, I just need to know what I did wrong them I think I might be able to do something" He laid his head back as if that speech had exhausted him.

"I am thinking of coming out to the media, I have had enough of all these rumors" He looked up at him. "What do you think, I really value your thoughts" He then paused "Why are you here?"

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Felix wondered if he should have even told Justin about what his sister said but it wasn't like he could take it back now so instead he just took a deep breath and squared his shoulders. He opened his mouth to tell Justin something but immediately closed it, how could Justin think this was because he had gotten beat up or something that he did or didn't do.

He wasn't sure how to explain it to Justin without having him feel that it was still his fault. "I didn't want anymore money from you Justin, hell you could have stopped paying me and I would still have wanted to see you. I still want to see you and that's why I've had two of my men tailing you ever since I left. Not to mention that's why I left you that letter with a bank account information for all the money you had paid me" Felix told him and wondered if Justin had even opened the envelope or if he was just that pissed off at him that he didn't care to read it. "Look, it was my fault your sister and you suffered. I should have stopped it before it had even started, that first moment Blaine told me that he was not happy about how close I was getting to you" Felix couldn't explain it any other way "But I will tell you this, Blaine was just a thug. He shook people down for money and think he owned whatever he laid his eyes onto. There was never anything between me and him and no matter how much I tried he wouldn't leave me alone"

He moved a little bit and was about to put his hand on top of Justin's but instead tightly held his arms to his sides. Felix remembered Justin's sister saying something about how no one else could touch him again except for her. He really wanted to comfort him but was afraid to "If you decided to come out to the media I will stand by you 100% and protect you. I know that probably doesn't mean much to you right now but I truly mean it and whether you want me there or not I will be there this time" he told him.

Why was he here? That was a hard thing to answer but the biggest thing to him right now was to see Justin even though at first he didn't want to. It was better that he had seen him and confronted what he was trying to run from, Felix didn't want to do that again. "You last question is rather hard to answer, I'm sure you want to hear I'm here because I couldn't stay away from you and I'm not saying that I didn't miss you horribly because I did but there are other factors as to why I'm back here. Let me put it this way, I know a lot about you since everything happened...so would it help if I told you things about myself that no one truly knows?"

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Justin was still feeling weak. He really didn't like Felix to see him like this. He knew he looked a mess. He rubbed his hands over his face and sighed. "You know I kinda forgot about that envelope, I..." He trailed off not wanting him to know how close to death he let himself get. How it only took his sister pleading with him to get even well enough to leave the hospital. "I thought it was a good bye letter and I just couldn't bring myself to read it"

He licked his lips. "No its not your fault, its Blaine's and no one elses" He paused "Well apart from me I hunted him down when I should have called the police" He looked up at him "He is the one you paid the money to isn't he" He watched as he moved but didn't touch him. He sighed he thought he knew the reason he wouldn't touch him he was disgusting, a frail looking body, almost a ghost of his former self.

He gasped. "You had two guards?" He looked shocked "That means I have had like four sometimes 6 guys following me, you would think I was someone important." He sighed "I don't know about it, but I am so sick of the rumors and everything, I want it all to end, I mean my own team already wont change with me, wont stay in the hottub with me or anything like that, how worse can it be" He shrugged. "And no I don't except you to be there, you cant have this media attention"

He listened to him as he didn't get an answer to this question but he nodded, "Sure tell me what you want me to know"

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Justin was understanding as always, even after everything that Felix didn't follow through with or the fact that none of this would have happened to Justin if Felix didn't get him involved in his life. "That's how Blaine worked, he would make you feel you need to handle things instead of calling the police but that's another issue" Felix waved it off like he shouldn't have said it but for some reason it came out.

Felix finally worked up the courage and scooted closer to Justin and gently placed a hand onto Justin's "You are special Justin and that's why I'm going to tell you this" he said to him trying hard to resist grabbing Justin and hugging him. "I grew up in a rather normal home. I had a mother, father and several younger siblings. When I turned 18 I left for college thinking that I was finally going to start my life however the first break I got from school I was informed by police that my family was gone......they said something like a fire, I can't recall that part anymore..." Felix had to take a deep breath, it had been some time since he thought about these memories on his own "I was alone and considered an adult but there was no money left. My parents had racked up a large debt with the Yakuza and the only one still able to pay that was me. I had to drop out of college and find some way to pay the debt. I had fallen into a very bad place and each day seemed to be worse and when I hit rock bottom I found myself working at BlackBird Spiral. That's all I had, attention from strangers and the money they paid me so I threw myself into my job becoming number 1 quickly and worked my ass off to keep that spot but that was until you came along. I blew off clients, missed out on work and handed over my body to Blaine so he wouldn't hurt you. You are special Justin and I have done everything I could to make sure you were safe and had nothing standing in your way, though I didn't take into account the rest of the consequences of my decision to make a deal with the yakuza boss" Felix slipped his hand from upon Justin's and ran a hand through his hair. His heart was beating a mile a minute and wouldn't be stopping anytime soon "I want to see you get better, I want to see you prove all those posers up, to make a difference in the lives of gays everywhere along with those that have nothing and show them that they can have what they want..."

[Xuxa_Rene]

"I didn't even know who it was to be honest when he was on the phone he just made me so mad threatening my sister" He rubbed his temples. "It was me that failed my sister, she was so distant for days, something must have been going on for a while" He shook his head then looked up at him.

He half smiled as he finally moved over to him. He shivered as he took his hand. He shook his head as he was called special, he was not special. He licked his lips and listened to his story. He gasped at the part that he lost his family. "I am so sorry" He swallowed as he continued the story. He gasped "Why would you do that all for me?" He asked "I am just a freak that cant handle being touched, that let revenge get the best of me"

He looked over to this man, the man that held a piece of his heart. "How much of debt do you owe?" He sighed and lightly touched him. "Felix I would give anything to keep you safe as well" He leaned back. "I know I look a mess. I am guessing my sister told you how sick I was" He paused and looked down "guess am" He rubbed his temples, "It cant get much worse then it already is my team refuses to change in the same room as I, what else can they do?"

In reality a lot could happen they lived in a community that didn't really look highly of gays, men that cheated on their wives at clubs yes, gays no. He looked up at him. "Do I really look that bad?" He whispered.

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Felix wasn't sure how he was going to get Justin to understand that he meant the world to him, which was why he pretty much gave his life for him. "Justin, everyone is human and if people have a problem with the way you are then they don't deserved your attention" He wanted to shake Justin so bad and get him to realize that he was a worth while kind of guy but that would probably only hurt his body with the state Justin was in.

"Justin I am safe. I don't have to sell my body anymore to pay off my parents debt and Blaine is gone. All I'm worried about is you now" Felix was about to wrap an arm around Justin's shoulders until his phone went off. He looked down at his watched and realized that he should have been back to the main house an hour ago. "I still have my old cell number, please call anytime but I must go" Felix told him though he was sure that Justin wouldn't like the reason that he had to go but that would be a discussion for another day. He had already revealed so much that had happened and Felix was sure that it would take at least a day for Justin to process all of it. "Please get well Justin and I look forward to seeing you swim at your Olympic qualifying swim meet" Felix leaned in slowly and gave Justin a kiss on the cheek. He pulled his sunglasses from his pocket and replaced them over his eyes, with one last look at Justin, Felix exited the limo and walked over to his own.

"There you are Mr. Valko. Where have you been? The boss has been calling nonstop" his driver called to Felix as he walked over to the limo. Felix held up his hand to silence him "It doesn't matter where I've been. I'm here now" he told him and Felix slide into his own limo as the driver hurried to get behind the wheel and headed back to the main house.

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Justin looked at him. "I could lose sponsorship, you know people still don't understand us, they think something is wrong with us" He paused then looked at him remembering they were different. "I mean me" He sighed. He still could see him self eating not until he was sure that Felix was safe. Some how just him staying that was not good enough.
 
He softly stroked the other mans check. "I miss you" He whispered. He shook his head. "There is nothing for you to worry about" He looked down. "Well I guess it looks that way but there isn't" He sighed as the phone went off. He leaned back and nodded. "Alright" He quickly rattled off his new number although he knew his sister would be mad.
 
He watched the man leave then his driver took him home. He nodded to his guards then went inside. His mom greeted him with a hug and forced him to get weighed. He hadn't lost any weight which was good but he hasn't gained any which was bad. He took a nap on the couch while his family made him a BBQ for celebration of him making it to the test. He slept for a good four hours before he was awoken with smells. He sat there and ate to please his family trying to please everyone. He licked his lips as he dug into the baked potatoe ceaser saladand steak. He ate more then normal then they all hundled together to watch a movie he kept his phone close just in case.

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He sat in the back of the limo just staring out the window the whole time, Felix had imputed the number Justin told him and left it at that. He still kept Justin's number in his old cell because he didn't want the boss seeing him talking to anyone who wasn't a customer on his work phone. Felix had decided from the moment that he saw Justin that he would not let his body be used for gain anymore but getting out of the limo at the main house made his resolve waver some.

"Good evening boss" he greeted after walking into the office but it didn't look like he was happy. Felix mental shrugged to himself and stepped further into the room. He knelled down on the pillow around a small table in the room and waited for his boss to do the same. "I'm anxious to hear your answer Felix" the boss told him after taking his own seat across the table from him. Felix then poured tea just to make himself feel better and then removed his sunglasses "I've decided to decline the offer of using my body to gain the contract, instead I will find another way to get it for you. We had come to an arrangement before I signed anymore paperwork that I would not have to do that anymore and if you decided to force me to then I will walk out that door and go straight to your competitors" Felix told him knowing that he was taking a large risk threatening his boss. However the boss didn't seemed to be phased at all minus a small twitch to his eyebrow "I suspected as much. We'll see how you feel after a few days on house arrest" the boss told him and then waved him off.

Felix knew that he had gotten off light but what he didn't expected was for the others to start harassing him and it wasn't like he could tell them to back off because it was probably an order from the boss. It took at least an hour to even get to his room and make sure that the others didn't just barrel in. He stood in his bathroom after stripping from his suit and stared at himself. He partially liked the way he looked now, no one called him an angel anymore...hell others barely walked close to him now but Felix was just glad that he looked healthier then before.

After a quick shower Felix dressed in a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt. He was sure that there was no way he was allowed in the kitchen right now and he wasn't allowed off the property to get food but that was nothing new to him. Felix had gone months barely eating anything when he worked at BlackBird Spiral so this shouldn't be any problem. He snatched his phone off his nightstand and pulled up Justin's number 'Wonder if he's even still up' Felix thought to himself but found his thoughts were starting to stray and make him feel like he was a prepubescent teenager. "Get a grip" he told himself and just placed his phone back on the nightstand and rolled away from it to catch some sleep.

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Justin gave up hope that Felix would be calling. He hoped that he hadn't made him late for anything. He sighed then licked his lips and settled in to watch the movie. When it was over he looked at his mom, he knew she was worried about him. "Hey mom can you make me one of those protein shakes tommrow" His mom beamed she knew that this was a first step in Justin eating again.

He then said good night to everyone then went to bed. He woke in the morning and went and had his protein shake then swam but not as hard as before. He and the family then went out for lunch. Everyone seemed still really worried about Justin though. He let them know he was thinking of coming out to the media and waited to see what his mom, dad, and siblings would think.

((his parents are free if you want to controle them that is fine))

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Morning was horrible for Felix, he woke up in the middle of the courtyard to the main house drenched in water. He just glared at the other members who were laughing their asses off. "Was that really necessary" Felix barked at them which sent them into another fit of laughter. "Hey boss said anything goes and you have no idea how much we've been wanting to harass you" one called to him over the laughter "Not to mention you just waltzed in here and some how became the bosses favorite and there's no way that you would believe that we would just leave you alone."

Felix pulled himself to his feet only to be shoved back down into the puddle of water that had been tossed on him, if there was only one or two of them he knew that he could take them but since he was pretty much in a circle of members he couldn't do much. "We knew there would come a time that you would fuck up and we'd get our chance" apparently all of them had something to say to him but Felix kept on trying to get up and each time he was knocked back to the ground. Though one thing the others didn't care to know was that Felix was a quick learner and each time he got knocked down he memorized who it was. He would get his chance to beat each one of them it was just a matter of waiting. "I may have been scrawny when I first got here..." Felix told them and this time was finally able to get to his feet, within that few seconds he laid a fist into one guys face "But I'm not anymore" he called out and the others lunged at him.

This went on for quite a while but each time Felix hit the ground he jumped right back up. He couldn't allow himself to be pinned to the ground otherwise it would be over for him. Felix was sure that boss was watching, he never missed a good fight or so he had been told. He could feel his muscles starting to give way but there were still at least five more guys standing in his way. "Enough!" That one simple word and everyone backed away from him. Felix slowly looked up to see the boss walking out onto the second floor balcony and glared at him. "All of you return to your jobs" the boss called out which left Felix and him there. "Get yourself cleaned up and then report to the training room" he ordered Felix and then was gone. "Just great" Felix hissed to himself but did as he was told and made his way back to his room.

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His family all smiled. "As long as you are fine with it and sure we will stand behind you the best we can" They all talked excitedly about it. Justin explained that he was tired of the rumors and just wanted to be about to be truthful for once. He knew there was a chance that he could lose everything. His sponsers even his Olympic run but he could always go into modeling it that happened it would take less time away and he could be himself. No chance at a gold medal but what was a gold medal even worth, was it worth not being himself?

A woman sitting beside then scoffed then stood up and began yelling at the family. Calling Justin a whore and a evil demon posseed person. Even offered to pay for him to go away to a special training camp that would fix him. His parents stood as did his older brother and told them to leave. The couple said that they would be praying for him but he was disgusting and was going to infect the pool with AIDS. Justin looked up at his family with tears in his eyes. "That is what I was afraid of, I mean what if I get beat up again"

The sercutry had witnessed the whole thing and had escorted the couple out then bowed to Justin "Forgive us for not bing closer" Justin shook his head. "Not nessasry I mean its just words right"

He texted Felix. "Rough day, message me if you can" He then started home with his family. He didn't know what he was going to do.

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Felix took his time cleaning up and dressed in some jeans and a shirt. It wasn't like he was going any where, so there was no need to impress anyone however he was sure that the boss would have something to say about his attire. Felix remembered something about the boss saying that they always hold an air of professionalism whether it's just out in the town or at home. He just shrugged his shoulders and walked out of his room. Standing just outside his door were two other members, Felix just jeered at them and continued on his way to the training room.

Inside the building there was no one and no light. It gave him the creeps a little bit but refused to show any fear, Felix did wonder why he was supposed to be here and was sure that he wouldn't find out till the last possible moment. So instead of just standing there in the door way he ventured further into the room, his eyes adjusted a little bit from a small hole somewhere in the room that let in just a bit of light. It looked as though the room hadn't been used in years and then a light went on blinding Felix. He quickly shielded his eyes and tried to see where the light had come from. "I have been instructed to keep an eye on you to make sure that this room his spotless" a voice rang out, one that he had never heard before but all the same pissed him off "So I'm the maintenance man now" Felix hissed and that got a chuckle out of the other person "Seems that way. Now get to work because I don't want to be here all day" he was instructed and Felix gave a short snort at the words "Same" he simply said.

It took three hours but the room had finally been clean and done well enough for the guy to tell him he was done. Felix and him never exchanged names or any other information but really there was no need. It wasn't like either of them wanted to talk to the other and Felix had hoped that he would never have to deal with the guy again. He was finally allowed to go back to him room and relax after getting a small meal. At least he still had his tv and other forms of entertainment in his room but the biggest one was his phone. Felix leaned over and grabbed it off the nightstand and noticed that he had a message. A true smile came to his face as he read the message from Justin. 'I share your pain. Want to talk about it?' Felix texted back.

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Justin was still stinging from all that. He felt as if he had been slapped in the face. He licked his lips as he got into the limo, he felt foolish but he was worred about his family's safty it wasn't safe to be around him right now maybe it was best if he pull away. He rubbed his face and Jessa as sensing it sat beside him and pulled him into her arms. "You are not going anywhere" He smiled "How do you know these things?"

Jessa shrugged "Just do" Justin and the family made more small talk. When they got home Justin worked out for half an hour then swam for two then laid on a chair on his stomach. When his phone buzzed he read it. then texted back.
"Was telling my family about maybe coming out and this couple went all crazy on my family saing I needed to be fixed...whats wrong with you, thought your new job was better"

He sent it then sent another "If this Olympic thing doesn't work out what do you think about me going into modeling?"

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After sending the message Felix rolled over and turned on his tv, though it wasn't like there was really anything on that he wanted to watch but at least it was background noise. Not long after his phone dinged and he read over the message "If only I had been there" Felix said to himself but took a breath so his own text message wouldn't come off like he was pissed. 'I had a rude awakening from a couple of...' Felix stopped midway in his text and read it over again, he wasn't sure how to put it to Justin because he wasn't sure that Justin understood what he was talking about when Felix told him that he made a deal with the yakuza boss. '...people and then it turned into an all out fight' Felix sent the message, that was the best way he could say it though he was sure it would raise questions if not concern from Justin about what actually happened. The second message popped up and he read it over, Felix was proud of Justin that he talked to his parents about coming out but wasn't sure what to tell him if his swimming career ended. 'Modeling might be fun but I hear it's just as much work as being a professional swimmer if not more. You'll be more in the limelight and even your everyday life will be dictated. With that being said if you want to go for it I'm sure you'll do great' he sent then turned his attention back to the tv which now had a movie on the channel he was watching.

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Justin read the text then frowned. Something was wrong. He texted back. "I wish I could see you" He then sighed something was wrong and he wanted to fix it. He wanted to know what this new job was but Felix had put up a wall between them. He read the next message and sighed. "What do you mean, in the lime light more?" He licked his lips and sent that. Did he mean that he couldn't ever have a relationship, the only person he really wanted a relationship was Felix, he didn't say that to him though nothing could repair the wall between them.

He was sitting by the pool likely burning but wondering what Felix was doing.

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Felix glanced over his phone but was a little distracted by the movie that was on the tv, he had realized that it was the same movie Justin and he watched that night in the hotel room. It brought back such great memories that he was having a hard time concentrating but after reading the message again he wanted to get up and leave that moment. For which he did but was only able to get as far as the front gate at the court yard. 'Dammit' he thought to himself and made his way back to his room. 'I'm pretty busy right now but we can meet up in about two hours...at that cafe near the bowling alley, is that alright?' Felix sent to Justin. Two hours was enough time or he was hoping so to get out of the house and at the cafe, Felix wanted to see Justin as well.

'Well with being a model you become a public figure, everyone will be waiting to see what you do next. Whether that's a photo shoot or just going to the store. Having a packed schedule you're used to but being a model, people will try to monopolize you so you can't do anything you want' Felix sent to Justin but the way he phrased it was probably a bit harsh. Felix sort of got a little jealous just thinking about all the people that could potentially take Justin away from him.

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Justin had fallen asleep between the texting. Causing a slight burn on his back, he had not seen much of the sun since Felix had left him. He jumped as the ding went off. "Sure that is great" He jumped up dove into the pool to cool off then cried out at the sting of the burn. He had a shower did his hair all spiky. Dressed in shorts and a silk button up shirt that he left undone it was still hot.

He grabbed his cell phone and kissed his parents good bye. Telling them where he was going so they wouldn't worry. He stopped when he read the other text and sighed. "See you soon we can talk about it then" He walked slowly to the café keeping eyes out for any thing. He was really jumpy. He made it to the café then sat down and took out his phone and texted him "I am here" He then ordered a coffee and waited.

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Felix hadn't expected an answer from Justin since he had been so rude about Justin wanting to model but was pleasantly surprised when his phone dinged. He read over the messaged and felt his heart speed up a little bit, now he had to find a way to get out of the house and away from the property without anyone finding out. He knew that there were a couple of guys watching his room on purpose without any orders from the boss just so they could harass him some more but what about the ones who were placed on babysitting duty.

He had to be carefully about his movements around the house just to see the ones that were meant to be watching him. To Felix's surprise there was only one watching him and the guy seemed bored, so he watched the guy for a little bit and waited for him to nod off at his post. After that it took a little maneuvering but he was finally able to jump the back fence and take off running for the cafe.

Almost to the cafe he remembered that he hadn't dressed to be out in public nor remembered to grab his sunglasses but he was almost there, Felix couldn't turn back now so he would just have to face Justin the way he looked. However the bags under his eyes were probably horribly and his hair was a mess, forget the clothes he was wearing. Felix rounded the corner to the cafe, one thing he was happy about though, no one backed away from him like they thought he was going to kill them. He walked up to Justin without caring to order anything and took the seat across from him "sorry I'm a bit late, it took longer to get away then I thought" Felix told Justin as he caught his breath.

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((Sorry be gone for a week))

Justin was getting antsy he really didn't like being out in public any more but he was desperate to see Felix. He fiddled with his coffee, drinking it then ordering more. They obliged him probably because they knew of him and his swimming. He was about to go when he finally saw Felix come in.

He gasped as he sat down. "Felix" He reached out and lightly touched his hand "No offense but you look like shit" He sighed "Why are you doing this to yourself?" He shook his head. "And you were getting on me for how I look?" He grasped his hand. "What do you need?" He handed him a menu "Anything really"

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Felix flinched slightly when he heard Justin's words, so he really did look that bad but he really didn't have time to clean himself up before coming here. Hell he wasn't even sure how much time he had before some members were sent to track him down and drag him back to the main house. "Like I told you earlier, I had a rough morning. Some of the others that I live with have a very sick sense of humor" Felix told him calmly hoping that Justin would just drop it. He didn't want to go into full detail of what his life entailed right now because it would probably just worry Justin even more.

"I'm sorry for getting on your case about the way you look but you look like you are wasting away. I just got beat up a little" Felix explained to him and took the menu. He looked it over a little bit but already knew what he was going to get. When the server came back over he ordered a small black coffee, he couldn't do much more at the moment only because he wasn't sure what kind of hell he would be going through later. "So anyways, you were talking about wanting to be a model. Why a model?"

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Justin lightly touched his hand and squeezed it. "I just worry about you, I know I look like hell too, just after you left I just couldn't do things, I missed you too much, figured I did something to upset you, I know we didn't follow the rules, and I am sorry for that, I shouldn't have asked you for that" He sighed "I wish you would tell me more, but I can understand if you don't want to, but why don't you just come and live with me, I live in the pool house now, it has two bedrooms, a bathroom, kitchen, you know everything." He looked to him. "Please I need to know that you are safe, and it doesn't look like you are safe, and if this is for me, screw it, I can take Blaine on myself, I am not worth all this shit happening to you"

He licked his lips and shook his head as he went on. "This is not a little" He paused wanted to reach out and touch his face but he wasn't sure if he would want to be touched right now, he looked like he was in pain. He frowned when that was all he ordered. "Are you sure you don't want anything else?" He shook his head. "Two soups of the day please" He turned to Felix.
"Soup will do you good"

He sighed about the modeling. He really didn't want to tell Felix about how he was bad it was getting. "Well as a model it doesn't matter if I am gay right?" He rubbed his temples and then looked at him. "Felix I am really worried about you, I can send protection to you if you need it"

[Ekstaze]

Felix kept an eye out the window so that he could make sure that if there were any members out looking for him that he could get away from them. He was keeping most of his attention on Justin though because he didn't want to upset the guy even more then he already had. How much more could Justin twist his heart and make it hurt? Felix wished that he could just pick up and take up Justin's offer but he had a contract with the Yakuza. Maybe it was time that he told Justin exactly what was going on in his life and that there was nothing he had to worry about. "I appreciate the offer of food" he told him but even the thought of eating the soup and probably getting it beat out of him later made his stomach turn.

He opened his mouth to explain to Justin why modeling wasn't a good idea however the server walked back over with their soups. Felix smiled at her a little but kept his eyes turned towards Justin. He picked up a spoon once she left and swirled it around in the hot liquid. "Blaine is no longer a problem...he's no longer in this country" Felix sipped at a spoonful of soup and it stung his lips, when was the last time he ate. After thinking about it he shook his head, it was probably nothing compared to the last time Justin ate.

Felix set his spoon down and looked Justin square in the eyes and then glanced around him to make sure there weren't too many people staring at them or listening to their conversation. "Alright listen Justin, I can only say this once and I have to be quiet. Blaine was part of this region's Yakuza group, the group my debt was with. In order fulfill my wishes I had walked straight into their main house after seeing you at the hospital with the rest of my debt money. I bargained with the boss to make sure Blaine paid, also to have two bodyguards watch over you from our group and in order to leave that house I became part of that group. I live at the main house with the boss and several other members but currently I have refused an order from the boss so I am fair game to the others in the house, hence the way I look right now" Felix sat back against his chair after taking a breath and picked his spoon up again. "As for the modeling like I said earlier, you will be more in the lime light. People will sneak into your house just to get dirt on you, they will spin anything in your life just to sell a magazine. Yes I've heard that modeling can be fun and rewarding and I'm trying not to be selfish here but I really don't think it's a good career path. However with that being said I am being bias because I want to be selfish. I don't want to share you with the rest of the world"

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