Re: BlackBird Spiral

[Xuxa_Rene]

Justin knew he was too hard on himself. He was in thearpy for that along with a wack of other things. He heard him suck in his breath when he had touched him so he recoiled thinking hte had hurt him or that his touch was just too much for Falcon. He instead gripped the bedrails and chewed his bottom lip. He watched to see what Falcon would do. He was no longer surprised that the man didnt seem to stare at his scars or that he was discusted by them. He had spent a long time spying on Falcon to make sure that he was the one that was to help him. Sure the fact that he was most clearly the most good looking man working here. He couldnt see himself with anyone else other then this man, even if it was to just help him.

Justin looked down to see what Falcon was doing. He arched out and cried out as if he had been stuck with a hot poker as he felt Falcons lips on his cock. His cock painfully erected even further as he started to suck him. He gripped the bed harder still thinking that Falcon didnt want him to touch him. He growled out, "Oh god Falcon" He was whimpering and tears were in his eyes but he coudlnt help the moans and whimpers.

He wanted to touch the mans hair but was scared because of his reaction before he didnt want to touch him again so instead was gripping the bed frame with such hardness that his hands were starting to burn and ach but he wouldnt let go. "That feels so good" He maoned out. "Oh God" He shook his head from side to side he hadnt felt something like this before so was besdie himself.

[Ekstaze]

Something changed in Justin's demeanor but Felix was too wrapped up in Justin's taste at the moment to care. He was right with his earlier statement, Felix could do this all day with this guy. Justin was perfect for Felix, he was so cute and his sounds with those expressions were all too wonderful. Felix was tried of being the one to take the dick and was ready to give it. Though that wasn't to say he wanted to hurt Justin. Quiet the opposite, Felix wanted to be the strong male who protected their lover.

At this moment Felix was not going to deny his feelings and depending on how this night went, it could mean this was the last time he saw Justin. If not this time but sometime in the future. When Justin is cured that would be the end of their contract and Felix will be alone again in this horrible world.

Felix hummed his approval of Justin's comments making his throat vibrate and sending nice little waves of pressure over Justin's penis. He ground his hips into the bed trying to relieve a bit of the pressure building up so he could concentrate on Justin. Though just by sucking Justin off the front of his own pants were already rather moist with pre-cum. At this rate he was going to cum just by give Justin a blow job, Felix was pretty excited just by the situation.

[Xuxa_Rene]

Justin couldnt contain all the feelings that he was feeling. It felt so good. He just couldnt belive it. The waves of pleasure kept coming. He shifted his head from side to side and made whimpering sounds. "Oh Falcon" He moaned out not reconizing his own voice. He bit hs lips and arched his hips whiched cause his member to go deeper into the other mans throat. Now he couldnt help it but move his hands to Falcons hair he ran it through.

"You are so prefect" He groaned out. "That feels so good, never had" He gasped out. "This" He finished. It was true he never felt the pleasure before he had given it, been forced to, been photographed and other horrific things happened. This was erasing all of that. Falcon was helping him feel what he knew was the true way he was suppose to feel with this. It wasnt love. That would liekly not be a thing for Justin in long time, but least this was helping him feel more comfortable in his skin. He gripped the mans hair gently.

He felt his head opening as a few drops of precum dripping out. He moaned out "Falcon I think I am going to cum" he whimpered out as a warning. Soon after Justin arched up and moaned out his name as he released. His eyes were closed so he was completly sure where he had finished but he was dripping in sweat and he was panting. His body was trembiling. "Oh God Falcon" He put his arm over his eyes as he tried to calm his heart down. "That was amazing" He stopped at saying thank you though. He touched the mans arms. "What about you though?" He innocently asked.

[Ekstaze]

This was just perfect, Justin was starting to relax his body more and Felix could feel that just by his movements. Though he wasn’t expecting Justin to arch his body that much and almost choked on his member. He quickly recovered himself and moved a little bit more onto the bed. He gasped slightly after feeling the fingers in his hair; they felt so good that it almost sent him over the edge. Felix was barely listening to Justin’s words after that moment and only accepted the sweet cum Justin shot into his mouth. Like usual he swallowed all that was given to him, the only difference this time…Felix enjoyed the taste. Not to mention it made clean up that much easier after they were all done.

Felix maneuvered himself so that he slid back on his knees and sat up to look at Justin, he was quiet pleased with himself just by looking at Justin. “It makes me happy to see you this satisfied…” Felix’s head was starting to clear a little bit and he was still having a hard time believing the words that were coming out of his mouth. He never was this straight forward with his other clients not to mention he hardly meant what he said with the others but with Justin it was different. “It is becoming a bit painful…” he started to say and was about to unzip his pants to finally relieve the pain from the confinement.

Unfortunately there came a soft knock at the door and Felix had to stop himself from groaning in displeasure “That’s the five minute warning” he told Justin while still trying to retain a level voice. Felix slowly got off the bed and walked over to a small nightstand; he pulled out a few things to help clean Justin off and then walked back over to him. “Maybe-“ Felix cut himself off before even continuing that thought, he wanted badly to suggest that next time they go to a hotel but that would be pushing Justin too fast and he didn’t want to scare the guy. Felix left it at that and focused on cleaning Justin up and throwing away the used paper towels. “Time seems to slip past me when I can actually enjoy myself with someone…thank you Justin” Felix finally admitted to Justin, that wasn’t pushing the boundaries with him because in his mind it was true even though his erection was still present and painful. He was actually really happy to see a look of satisfaction on Justin’s face.

Felix stared at Justin for a few more seconds and then got off the bed so that Justin could redress not to mention he was having a hard time not keeping the guy there longer. He was sure though that Justin wanted to get home or something of that sort. Felix also had to remind himself that he still needed to keep his promise with Blaine that he had made earlier so that he could stay with Justin the rest of the night.

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Growling out as he pumped out then whimpering. It was a strange pain. Yes there was pain but it was mxed with pleassure. He licked him lips then watched as Falcon came up his eyes darted to his croutch he couldnt imagine the pain that he was in. He slowly went to reach out he wanted him to feel as good as he did. Falcon had made him feel so good. He hadnt noticed that this whole thing could feel that good. He knew that this was the prefect anserw and it was with the prefect man. He wanted to kiss this man to touch this man like he had touched him.

He was just about too when the knock and the door came and Falcon got up. Justin frowned When he came back and started to alk then stopped Justin listened and nodded. "I wish we could go somewhere without" He stopped suddenly and shook his head. He had to remind hisself that Falcon wanted nothing more then this contract and his money. Which was as painful as he thought it was going to be okay with it. He couldnt get attacted. Ahh the hell with that he already was. He was attached when he started to monitor him before he even inquired about him.

When Falcon got off the bed he scrambled off then slowly touched his bulge and kissed him. Then stiffeed. "I am sor-" he started to say then shook his head. "No I am not, you made me feel so good, let me touch you, I know we only have 5 minutes but what can I do so you are not in pain, I dont want to be the type that just leaves you in pain" His eyes misted over.

[Ekstaze]

There was a growing lump in his throat now, something about this whole situation gave Felix a new feeling. He wasn't sure what to call it, Felix had only known a feel emotions. Love was one of those feeling but he didn't know if he could feel it anymore and remorse was a really strong one he knew. But this feeling that he was getting was hard for him to describe, Felix didn't want to let Justin go home and he didn't want to go home to Blaine and his forceful ways.

Felix stared at Justin for a little bit and was happy when he was able to receive another kiss from him before Justin left. Every time Justin told him something it made Felix's heart flutter, he was falling deeper for this man and he knew that he shouldn't. A small smile formed on his lips, there was one way that he could get off in five minutes but Felix didn't want to end the night like that. Felix wrapped his arms around Justin's shoulders and pulled him into a gentle hug "If you really want to make me feel good then promise me that we will meet next week, same time but instead of the club we go here..." Felix told him softly then pulled away from him a little bit and pulled a card out of his pocket. If Justin wasn't going to say it then Felix was going to, he held out a business card to Justin that was for a hotel that the BlackBird Spiral did business with.

"Set up a room with the hotel and tell them you were referred to them by me, they will set you up with any room you want and then let me know what room that is by using this number" Felix then handed Justin his personal card with his cellphone number on it, the only other person that had that number was his boss. Might as well break all of my rules he thought to himself. "If you can promise me that then you will make me feel good" Felix gave him a soft smile and he hoped that he didn't scare Justin.

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Being pulled into the hug Justin stiffened for a moment then relaxed and sighed. He knew in that moment that Falcon was not going to make him give him release. He felt a mixture of emotions, glad that he wasnt going have to let this man invade his most intimate area but he felt sorry for him, Justin was the only one that finished. He sighed and hugged the man back.

Justin gasped at the other man. "You..." He smiled and stroked the mans face. "I would really like that" He looked him up and down again he could feel there was tsomething that he was holding back but he gave it up for now. He took the card and nodded. "Alright" He nodded to all the instructions. "Any special requests?" He asked softly.

He pulled him him into the hug again "Of course I will agree to that" He kissed him lightly. Then he got dressed and handed Falcon an enveople. "Here go you, I will see you next week" He started to walk out but figured Falcon would want to walk him out again.

((Maybe Blaine is watching in the shadows or whatever, sorry its short his swim meat and another scuff will happen sin my next post)

[Ekstaze]

This man was giving him a lot of firsts, Felix couldn't remember the last time he didn't want a night to end or the company that he chose to have. It was hard for him to let Justin go but he knew that the guy probably wanted to get dressed and if Felix kept Justin here after closing then he could get into a lot of trouble. "Then you've made me the happiest man tonight" Felix told him softly.

Felix followed behind Justin, he felt like he should walk him out tonight. Like something was going to happen or that there was someone watching. The club was almost bare of people now, most the hosts probably were already on their way home and the manger would be in his office. Felix tucked the envelope into his coat pocket and walked Justin all the way to the front of the club. "I had a really good night Justin" Felix bowed his head to him, he was sure that Justin was getting better about things behind closed doors but that is where it should remain for the time being. Don't want to push him too hard.

"Until next week" Felix told him even though he had disregarded the question about requests. It was not his place to make requests and he wanted Justin to do as he pleased when it came to their situation but Felix was sure as things progresses it might get hard for him to let Justin have the control. "Please be safe getting home" Felix quickly scanned the area of the street just to make himself feel better, however when he saw a pair of eyes glowing in the shroud of black in an alley his stomach dropped.

"If anything should happen...well what I mean is...if you ever need help, the second cared that I gave you is my personal cell phone number. If you should need any assistance please don't hesitated to call me" Felix looked back at Justin and told him. There was a faint smile on his face though Felix wasn't sure if it was meant only for Justin or for the person looking at them. "I must be going myself, don't want to be out too late" With that said he bowed his head once more and disappeared back into the club.

"Cutting it close tonight Falcon" Felix heard after the front doors were closed behind him and he just shrugged his shoulders "He's still new to everything manager, it will take some getting used to. You know that more then anyone" Felix commented softly and followed the manager back to his office. As always he handed over the stores share and placed the rest into his coat pocket once more. Then he returned to his dressing room and shifted everything over into his after work clothes. It wasn't long before Felix was headed on his way home down his usual path.

"You are too predictable Felix" the voice was harsh and the arm around the throat didn't help any either. Felix coughed a little bit from the force around his neck "I wasn't planning on being different" he choked out and Blaine released his grip only to shifted it down to Felix's waist "Shall we then" Blaine asked in that sickening voice and Felix knew just exactly what he was talking about.

((That's alright. I understand))

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Justin blushed. Hearing Falcon say that he had made him happy by simply agreeing to met somewhere else other then here? His inner self was gloating. He licked his lips ran his hand through his hair. He still felt really guilty about not finishing the other man off. He nodded and walked with him. He smiled to himself what would Falcon say when he found 3000 bucks in the envelope? He smriked. Sure eventually his parents would wonder where the money was going, he was actually touching his allowance. He would cross that bridge when he came to it. His parents would understand, they would be concerned for him but would support him. All the therapy wasn’t working and this was the last thing his therapist recommended.
Walking out with Falcon Justin noticed most of the club was empty. He worried that he was going to tbe in trouble for him staying so long he turned to say so but the other man had bowed so Justin smiled “If needed I promise I will call you” Then he walked to his car. He felt like he was being watched so leaped in to his car and called his security. “Hey Taylor its me, yeah, I am ready to go. Thanks” He then hung up. He felt better with someone following him. Well someone he knew.
He got home and went straight to bed. All the alarms would be set. Taylor would be watching and guarding along with a few others. He just couldn’t shake the feeling that he was being watched. He wasn’t ready for it to be common knowledge what he was not that he was ashamed of it just wasn’t ready for the world to know. He knew that it could go bad for his career. Plus for the club he didn’t want to bring that to Falcons door step.
He stripped down to his boxers and sighed closing his eyes feeling Falcons hands and….mouth on his body. He fell into bed and fell asleep. In the morning he awoke, remembering that it was his swim meet day got out of bed had his typical breakfast and stretched. He then drove to the pool. His family would be joining him soon. Spotting them he greeted them all with a hug. Jessi still looked a little distant but he would have to find out after what was going on. His parents were looking at him. “Yes I know, later k?” He said softly. They raised an eyebrow each but then nodded. “Good luck Justin”
Justin did his swim meet and came in first place. He grinned getting his award but was exhausted. After he had showered, alone it seemed all the others were staying in the hot tub longer then normal. He shrugged it off and got changed and met his family. Seeing how tired he was they suggested that he come back with them for dinner. Justin nodded.
Once there he laid down on the couch and crashed for three hours. When he awoke he walked outside to the patio and was greeted by his parents. His sister was lounging by the pool. His mom looked at him and Justin ran a hand through his hair and sat down. “I know I have been spending more money the usual, but still have plenty put away and give lots to charity like you taught me” He looked up at them. “Dr Flynn suggested that maybe going to a club would help” His parents remained silent. “It helps I can handle be touched a little now” His parents smiled. “Well you are 21 now we are just happy for you” He smiled “There is a really nice man there” His parents beamed again. “Justin we are happy for you” Justin blushed slightly “Its nothing just a business contract.” His parents frowned. “The right guy is out there for you Justin”
Justin loved his family they were so understanding and loving. He pointed towards Jessi “What’s going on with her?” They sighed “New boyfriend” He sighed. “Passed the background checks?” They chuckled “Yes” He smiled “Good, so mind another one for dinner?” His parents rolled their eyes “Do we ever?”
Justin went down to the pool area in one swift motion drove into the pool. No splash was made so Jessi who had fallen asleep on a floaty was none the wiser. He swam up to her flipped her then climbed aboard and grinned at her. She splashed him and he giggled. They talked for a bit floating around till dinner was called.
The rest of the evening went well. And since he drank a bit Justin slept over. In the morning he went home and took care of his pets and did his exercises and work. He finally had a moment to dig out the card and he looked at it. “Felix” He said aloud. Of course at the club he would have a nick name. He called the hotel and booked a room with a hot tub in it. He had a feeling he wasn’t doing enough for Felix so would need the soothing waters.
Once that was all done he threw himself headstrong into work. He made deals and all the stuff. He smiled. He was going to make Felix happy. Or at least he hoped he would. Maybe he would finally admit that he made nearly a hundred thousand a day. He could afford it all. Well with all these new deals it was about hundred thousand a day.
In the coming days he worked out and swam. He noticed that whenever he entered the shower room the room would empty. She heard a few “fag” comments and got a bit nervous. Once he was done his shower he got dressed and called Felix. “Hey its Justin, its set up for this weekend you know the number” Before he could finish he was slamed into the wall. “Talking to your boyfriend you fag?” Someone sneered. Justin hung up hoping that Felix wouldn’t hear”
Finally the day came and he showed up at the hotel. Early he wanted to be first in the room. He got the keys and waited for Felix.

((Sorry it took so long...hope you like))

[Ekstaze]

It was weird, both of them made it back to Felix’s house without Blaine trying anything on the way home. It was odd for Blaine to hold himself back, not only that though when they were inside the apartment Blaine still didn’t do anything. Felix was expecting to be stripped the moment they walked through the door but Blaine just stood there leaning against the front door eyeing Felix. “What?” Felix finally asked getting rather annoyed at Blaine’s stares. “He’s not just a client is his” Blaine finally said after another few minutes of silence “What makes you say that?” Felix squared his shoulders and returned Blaine’s glare “I’ve known you long enough to notice your small facial expressions and the way you looked at him and glared at me at the club tells me things” Felix had to stop himself from sneering at Blaine but he also tried to stop himself from blurting profanities at Blaine. The guy wasn’t wrong but if he showed that he cared for Justin something bad might happen and Blaine being Yakuza meant he could do just about anything to Justin.

Felix crossed his arms over his chest and leaned against the kitchen counter, there were so many things that he wanted to say right now but the biggest thing that was becoming harder for him not to say was “BACK OFF” Felix cringed at how loud his own voice had gotten and didn’t think that he was actually going to say it “Oh really. So that’s how you feel. Maybe I’ll have a little talk with him or…I could just make it so that you have to quit being a host” Blaine knew just how to threaten him and Felix hated the fact that there were things that he cared about that Blaine could hold over his head. “You wouldn’t dare, we have a deal that if I meet you at least once a month outside of the club that you wouldn’t do anything to it” Felix argued with him and Blaine just shrugged his shoulders “But you are becoming more and more disobedient. I need to find ways to keep you under control and if that means going back on my word then you should know better than anyone that I will.”

He couldn’t believe that Blaine was doing this; he figured that they would just come back to his place and Blaine would have his way and then leave. Felix really didn’t want to drag this out any longer than it had to. “Are we just going to stand here and talk or have sex?” Felix practically hissed at him and that made Blaine take a step towards him “If you are in such a hurry to start then fine, we’ll talk afterwards”
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Felix’s week didn’t go much better, Blaine didn’t leave until the following day and that pissed Felix off even more. He still continued with his schedule at the club and came home to an empty house finally. However Felix would have preferred to come home to Justin or something of the like. He sighed heavily after closing his front door, tonight was going to be like all the previous. He was alone in a darkened apartment and he wouldn’t be able to see Justin for a while. Felix had to put on his mask and accept the acts that his clients wanted to do just so he could get paid. He walked through his small apartment disregarding eating anything and just lay down on his bed staring up at the ceiling. Like so many nights he counted the ceiling tiles but that lasted only so long and when his phone went off he about jumped out of his skin.

He held his phone into his line of sight and didn’t recognize the number “Hello?” He questioned and breathed a sigh of relief when the voice on the other end was familiar. “Justin, it’s nice to hear from-“ Felix was cut off so abruptly leaving him to stare at his phone “Well then this weekend” He said to himself and was still a bit confused by the abruptness of the call. Wonder if he is ok? Felix had the urge to track him down but he wasn’t even sure where to begin so he rolled over and passed out instead.

When the weekend came Felix couldn’t help but have a smile on his face, he dressed up in one of his newest black suits and tie and headed for the hotel. The hotel wasn’t that far from the club so it didn’t take him long to get there, he spent a few seconds at the front desk to get the key and as he headed towards the room he was stopped by an old client “Falcon, it’s been too long” he heard and had to prevent himself from clenching his jaw together. “Yes it has been but I’m sorry but I am meeting a client right now so I don’t have the time to talk. If you come by the club with an appointment I can give you more time” He tried to turn him down politely however the guy wasn’t having it. “Please, I promise that if you come by the club I can talk to you then” Felix turned and walked away, he didn’t have to be polite to the guy since right now he was supposed to be attending to Justin so he decided to just walk away from him.

Felix stood at the door for a few seconds before he slid the key into the lock and walked into the room. He stopped right at the door and looked around, he figured that Justin would have gotten a nice room but this seemed a little too much. He figured they were going to talk or maybe more again but this was a little extravagant wasn’t it. “Justin?” Felix called softly as he walked through the place to looking around.

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Justin had likely gone a bit over board but his security wanted him safe. He understood. With his company and then his swimming career and going for the Olympics they kept an eye on him. The had checked the room before he got there. He had rented out the entire floor. He paced a little bit. Had ordered Pizza, hoping that Felix. Justin smiled at that he had the man’s real name this time. He ran his hand through his hair and started to pace again.
He thought back on his week. Had Felix heard the fag comment? Sure he was gay but he hadn’t come out to the public yet. He just wasn’t ready. He wasn’t ashamed but didn’t want all that attention brought to his family or his team mates. He knew he had been short with him on the phone. But he hadn’t wanted to let Felix know what was happening. He was trying his hardest to not get attached. He had to keep reminding himself that this was just a business deal. This was nothing but a way to get Justin over his fear of being touch. So eventually he could be in a real relationship.
His phone rang he answered it. It was one of his trainers. His back was to the door so didn’t hear Felix enter. “Yes he did, ummm Fag” He was answering questions. “Why didn’t I come to you?” He paused “Well its no big deal, a slight push” He sighed “It doesn’t matter” Another pause “Twice, slight bruises” He swallowed. “Don’t bother, I am an adult, I am not going to press charges” He sighed. “I am at a hotel for the weekend, just wanted to get away” He sighed again. “Yes, I know, thanks, yeah , first place again” He smiled. “Yep see you Sunday thank you”
He hung up and turned and jumped seeing Felix. His eyes light up and he smiled “Why hello” I got some Pizza hope you like it”

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This room was one of the biggest that he had been in, a few of his clients liked their privacy and usually the people that rented rooms like this were stalked. He sighed lightly still trying to figure out where Justin was though by the sound of the voice he wasn't too far away. Felix stood at an entrance to...well he wasn't sure if this was a living room or a bedroom. He hadn't meant to to eavesdrop on Justin's conversation but it was hard not to and as Justin turned to face him Felix wished that he hadn't heard the conversation.

Felix slowly walked over to Justin and wrapped his arms around the man's shoulders. He held him lightly but so badly wanted to squeeze him, what did Justin go through everyday? Was there no one around to protect him from jerks on a daily bases? With another soft sigh he pulled from the hug and looked down at Justin "Who's harassing you?" Felix wasn't going to deny that he had heard the conversation because he didn't want to lie to Justin.

"Is it the same person that bruised your face the other time?" Felix wasn't going to let Justin talk his way out of this one. He wanted to find who ever was hurting Justin and make him pay, Justin was a great guy and very sweet. It wasn't like Felix had much to lose anymore and there was always one person he knew that he could call and get something taken care of. His debt would go up considerably but if it meant that Justin would be ok then he would pay that debt.

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Justin’s heart fell. So Felix had heard the phone call. He gasped and stiffened slightly as he was hugged. Slowly he relaxed but by that time Felix had already let go. Why couldn’t he just handle to be touched? He shook his head slightly. He wasn’t going to get into his life. That is not want this was. Talking about personal things were just not part of their deal. He looked around but then again he wasn’t sure meeting in a hotel was part of that too.

He smiled to shake it off. “Its nothing, my security team is working on it” He moved to the bed. “Hope you like pizza, if you don’t like the kind here I can send Taylor out for more” He cracked open a can of pop. “I am going to have to work this off on Monday but its gonna be worth it” He looked to him again and shrugged. “Really Felix” He smiled “By the way I prefer Felix to Falcon, a Falcon is like a hunter” He looked up at him and sighed. “So are you going to join me?”

He noticed the anger. “Felix don’t worry yourself about it, if it gets worse I will do something about it, sticks and stones right isn’t that what they always taught us?”

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Felix had to clear his head before his own emotions got away from him, he didn't want to scare Justin right now. Though he wasn't even sure why he was getting so worked up over one person, he had clients in the past that got into a lot of trouble and he never really cared before. So why now? Why this person? There were still things Felix didn't understand about the situation and it kind of scared him.

He kept his eyes trained on Justin waiting to hear his answer and when he got it, the answer didn't make Felix feel any better. So Justin was going to avoid telling him anyways but that was probably for the best and it wasn't his right to know anyways. However Felix still couldn't help feeling like he wanted to do something about it. "If you have a security team then it shouldn't have happened in the first place" Felix said softly though he wanted to yell. So Justin did have people to take care of him and yet they weren't doing their job, that pissed him off even more.

It took a second for Felix's mind to register the fact that Justin had called him by his real name. He quickly cleared his throat and looked away from Justin for a second "Pizza is pizza. Though I can't have too much of it" Felix told him and followed Justin example to grab a soda. "The club requires that I have an alias and I actually agree with them. Falcons are one of my favorite birds so that's why it became that" Felix cracked open the soda and took a small sip from it. His stomach about lurched everything up, it had been quite some time since he had something carbonated. "That saying is wrong. It may not hurt right now but it will hurt later...trust me. Words are just the beginning, if these people are serious enough then it could turn physical" Felix was having a hard time not embracing Justin in another hug or making a phone call of his own. The only thing stopping him right now was the fact that this was Justin's time and he had gone through all the trouble of booking tonight.

Felix took another sip of his soda, trying to get used to it again so that he could drink the rest of the can "I'm sorry. I'm being too rash, I'm sure that you have everything under control and I shouldn't be sticking my nose in other people's business...so what's on the agenda tonight?"

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Justin sighed. He wanted to be close to someone. He wanted to be able to just sit and talk but that was not a part of the deal. Even though Justin wanted more, he had to admit that to himself. He wanted to be able cuddle and talk. Release some of his pent up fear and anxiety. He looked up at Felix again. He smiled at the comment. “Well they are not normally in the change rooms” His eyes flashed with laughter. He didn’t say anything but if he didn’t know better he would think that this other man cared, well of course he cared he was paying him well enough. That’s all this was, as much as Justin did want more. Felix he sure didn’t want more he was confusing him though, if Justin was just a pay check for him why did Felix care so much.

Justin frowned “Shit I am sorry I am so stupid I should have asked what you could have, least what you wanted” He frowned “There is wine icing in the icebox if you are interested in that” He frowned. “Are you hungry?” He ran a hand over his shaved head. “Now I feel really stupid but I want you to eat something”
He bit his lip at the next question. “I don’t know, I was thinking, maybe a movie” He blushed. “What do you think?”

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Felix was trying hard not to press Justin for more definite answers but by the look on his face, it made Felix pause. "No pizza is quite alright. I'll just have to make sure I do a workout before tomorrow or something like that" Felix told him waving it off and sipping at his soda. "I know things are a little...well I'm not sure how to put it and I know what I said at our initial meeting...just forget it" Felix set his soda down on the nearest table and walked over to get the wine. That was something that he was used to so his stomach should appreciate it.

After opening the bottle of wine and quickly taking a sip of his wine he finally turned back around to face Justin "I'm going to say something and it's probably going to confuse you but I hope you listen...from now on could you please keep one or two of your security guards with you at all times...even in the changing rooms" Felix walked back up to Justin hoping that he didn't offend him by asking that. He just wanted Justin to be safe and it wasn't for a paycheck but that was something a little harder to explain to Justin. Though Felix hoped that Justin didn't see it that way by the expression on his face because words were so much harder for him to say.

"Would you like a glass of wine as well or are you alright with soda?" Felix remembered to offer, he was still here to do a job however much he that he didn't want this to be a job. Maybe something more like meeting a lover that he hadn't seen in a while or even an old flame that came back but not a job. "Don't worry I'll eat this time Justin and a movie sounds nice. I just want you to be comfortable, besides we have all night with no one to bother us this time right" Felix gave Justin a little smile because even he was happy about that fact. He would be able to have the rest of the night and even till morning with Justin. That was also a weird thought, he would be going back home when it was light out. Felix wasn't too sure about that fact but he would deal with it when the time came.

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Justin was still unsure about the pizza and pop. He had just wanted Felix, Falcon to be comfortable for all this to seem more normal but even with the other mans words he still felt very stupid and sure of himself now. He smiled and did his best to hide his insecurities though he just wanted this night to be more normal just two people hanging out. Although Justin couldn’t get his dream out of his mind.


The night before he had dreamt that he had laid down with his head on this mans chest and watched a movie. Then they had made out and both had came. He looked up at the man and wondered if that could happen tonight, they had plenty of time. He was wondering slightly why he trusted this man so quickly. Then bit his lip, of course it was the no strings attached this man didn’t care about his past just about the money.


As Felix tried seemed to struggle with words he frowned. He then shrugged “It wasn’t that bad, but yeah they are going to be sticking closer. Thanks” He nodded to the wine “Please” He then wrinkled his brow. “What do you mean ignore what was said on the first night?” He stood and stretched and moved the food. Then he handed him the remote. “I am just going to change, I am a little uncomfortable in these jeans.” He paused. “Go ahead and pick a movie” He shrugged “I am not picky”


He then walked into the bathroom and changed into baggy lounge pants and a t-shirt. He walked back out and to him to take his glass of wine. “So were you able to pick something?”

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Felix sipped at his wine as he watched Justin, well at least the guy was going to keep his sercurity closer to him though the way that he told Felix sounded like he was just being brushed off. With a slight shrugged of his shoulders Felix walked over and grabbed a slice of pizza after setting his glass of wine down on a nearby table. He eyed the food for a second before taking a bite of it, it tasted just how he remembered. Felix would have no problem eating this though the thought of working out later just to eat this was a little daunting. He proceeded to take a few more bites and swallowed hard with Justin’s question of his words earlier.

He picked up his wine and took a small sip hoping it made his throat feel better “Well you see…” Felix started to tell him only to receive the remote and then watch Justin disappear to change. Ok that’s…He started to think but brushed it off as he turned to the tv. Hmm what to watch…don’t really know what’s out there anymore. Should probably brush up on that Felix thought to himself once more as he shifted through channels looking for something that seemed entertaining.

Felix turned his head slightly when Justin entered the room once more and then back at the tv, it looked as though some kind horror or action movie was on the screen “This…I guess. I’m not really good with picking things to watch, I haven’t really caught up on the latest movies or shows” Felix told him and walked over to set the remote down. It was hard for him to keep his eyes off Justin, no matter what the guy was wearing; Felix just wanted to touch him. He kind of wished that he hadn’t worn a suit and maybe worn something a little more comfortable. Felix unbuttoned and stripped off his coat to hang it on the back of a nearby chair, also loosening his tie but he would have to remain in his oxford shirt and black dress pants.

“So anything new happening…well I mean other than those assholes” Felix asked hoping to avoid answer the question he was asked earlier, truthfully Felix wasn’t even sure what he had meant by it. Was he trying to tell Justin to forget about parts of what he told him, like the getting personal part or maybe he was trying to say just forget the whole contract. That sounded like a better idea to Felix, it wasn’t like he really needed that much money, with the amount that Justin had already paid him, he was caught up at least two years on his payments. But to explain to Justin that he wanted to get rid of their contract could have many outcomes.

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Coming out then realizing that Felix didn’t have anything comfy he frowned. “Well I have something for you but you don’t have to take it” He shrugged and handed over a plastic bag with a t-shirt and lounge pants. He blushed a little “But I must say you do really look good in that suit”


He sat down on the bed and looked up at him. He wondered why Felix was looking at him. He then sighed. “Thanks for the wine” He took a sip He leaned back and then looked to the movie. “Looks good” He licked his lips and then glanced up at him. “I am sorry I am new to this all, I know it’s silly, but I mean is it okay if we lay together on the bed, and just” He paused as if he was looking for the right words. “Cuddle” He looked down at his hands. Why was this so awkward for him?


He smiled “Well I came in first in the meet” He blushed and shook his head. “One step closer to the olympics, unless” He trailed off “Well if it comes out that I am gay, I don’t know if it will go well, I know people are still scared of the who HIV thing, stupid really but” He paused “Ahh that reminds me” He got up to his bag and pulled out some papers “My blood work, all clear” He looked up at him then sat down on the bed waiting to see what he would do change or stay in the sexy suit.

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Felix was about to walk over to the bed and lay down but stopped himself when Justin handed him a bad. That was a little unexpected and he wasn't sure what he wanted to do now, he really did want to be comfortable that way he could just relax with Justin but then he had to go and say that he looked good in the suit. Felix looked down at the bag for a little bit and decided that having comfortable pants would at least be nice and he could just go without the shirt. It was rather warmth in this room anyways.

He turned his attention to Justin for a little bit and gave him a smile, they had met a few times already and he was still unsure of what to do but Felix could only tell him so many times that whatever Justin wanted to do they could. "Cuddling his nice" Felix told him and then started to walk towards the bathroom. He turned back to Justin just as he was handed something, Felix looked at him a bit confused but then nodded his head. He wasn't really too concerned about things like that though that could have due to the fact that he knew he was clean himself and he hoped that any client he got would be as well. "That's good to know...I guess" he said softly and set the paperwork down on the nearest table.

"I'll be right back" he told him softly and disappeared into the bathroom, though he wasn't sure why he didn't just change right there. It wasn't like he was that shy, it just seemed like the right thing to do at the moment. Felix quickly stripped out of his suit and shuffled through the bag till he pulled out the pants. He looked them over hoping that they would fit well enough though as he pulled them up his legs he realized that they were a bit big in the waist "That's not good" he commented softly to himself. Maybe he should put on a little bit of weight so that he looked healthy again and Felix confirmed that when he looked in the mirror.

His cheeks were a little sunken in and the muscle tone in his arms that he used to have were almost gone now. He was happy though that his legs were still toned well but he still looked a little sickly right now "maybe a shirt is a good idea" Felix stuffed his hand back in the bag and pulled the shirt out, he quickly pulled it over his head and left the bathroom. "So do you have any other meets coming up?" Felix asked as he made his way to the bed and laid down.

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Justin was really feeling like a fool now. He frowned and almost smacked himself in the head he had just thought...well he wasnt really sure what he thought he was going to do with the pants, did he really think that Felix would want them? Smiling softly as he took the back.

He then frowned again. "Well about the tests I thought you had requested them, I" He shrugged "Guess I was wrong, I mean the club had a copy but now you do too" He looked at his hands "I know I keep asking stupid things, but you know we are somewhere different today since we are at the hotel and not the club. I have to admit I really was looking forward to this all week, I really needed it.

He watched as he left and when he took awhile he stood and stretched a little trying to calm himself down. He gluped down the wine then poured himself another cup. He then sat down on the bed and gasped when he saw Felix come out. He blushed and then smiled "Yeah next friday its a big one" He shook his head sadly he knew that there was a chance that he wouldnt be able to compet if his status came out.

((sorry for the delay...this one gives me problems some times))

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Felix hadn't meant to upset him but for some reason he really didn't care about all the paperwork when it came to Justin. He felt that he just has to be near him and nothing was going to stop Felix from doing that. "Well I usually do require my own copies so I can look them over either before or after the club does but for some reason I did feel that it was necessary" Felix took a sip of his drink and turned part of his attention to the tv.

He was glad that Justin had been looking forward to this night as much as he was but Felix couldn't help but wonder why. It wasn't like they did much, the their last meeting got a little further but it seemed like things were going to take a few steps back. Felix turned his eyes to Justin with an easy smile on his face "I feel the same, the way my week went, this is a nice reprieve" Felix finished off his wine and slowly got up off the bed, tonight he was planing on having a good night. After picked the wine bottle up again and pouring himself another drink he realized that it was already half gone.

'Guess I'm not the only one who wants to be tipsy' he thought to himself and placed the bottle back in the ice and turned back to Justin "I bet it's interesting watching you compete...maybe I'll show up one time...well if I find out the time and place or something like that..." Felix chuckled to himself softly, his last commented made him sound like a stalker. Justin hadn't given anything that he even wanted Felix to show up or really mentioned it till Felix had brought it up 'That's because you told him that your personal life is separate from the club and that you wouldn't be mixing them ever' Felix reminded himself but shrugged it off and laid back on the bed.

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Nodding Justin sighed “Okay so I wasn’t losing it” He smiled softly. “Glad that you don’t need it from me though, guess that means..” He trailed off. He was about to say that they had more but he didn’t want more. He stood and poured himself some more wine as well. He downed that glass then poured another he was hoping to get closer to him. He moved back to the bed and sighed. “Come sit with me please?” He sighed “I know you don’t want it, but could we just pretend for tonight that this is more than a client thing?” He looked up at him with a sad look in his eyes.


He sat up a bit too quickly “whoa head rush” He was a bit dizzy “That would be great” He blushed then sighed “I mean if you want, next one is Saturday at the same pool, you know the one” He grinned. “Would be nice, I mean my family comes but that’s about it” He then patted the bed again and turned down the volume. “Is your back bothering you again?” He asked quietly.

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Felix watched Justin carefully, there was something different about tonight and more then just the two of them coming to a hotel instead of the club. He watched as Justin downed another glass of wine "you know if you drink wine too fast..." Felix began to tell him but his sentence trailed as he watched him some more. "Guess being drunk is on the list tonight" Felix said softly to himself and sipped at his own drink.

At the request to sit by Justin he got up from his spot to move more towards him. Felix was happy about the offer to be just more then client and host tonight, actually it had been something that he wanted for a bit now. "I am happy to fulfill that wish" Felix sat next to Justin and leaned over giving him a kiss "How about this...I'm home honey" Felix said with a bit of a smile. This was rather nice. He gave Justin another kiss before he sat back a little bit "My backs fine...why? How's yours feeling?" Felix wasn't sure where Justin was going with that one but he shrugged it off anyways.

He then finished off his own glass of wine before leaning over and grabbing the bottle to fill his glass once more. At this rate they were going to need another bottle but they would come to that in time. Felix put the bottle back before drinking half the liquid from his glass and placing it on a nearby table. "Well then I'll have to see if I can arrange to be there...though I'll have to find some thicker sunglasses if I'm going to be out when the sun is up" Felix chuckled lightly at his own personal joke.

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Justin smiled “Well I want a little fun tonight, I have been good my whole life, guess scared of being sent back. Well I am an adult now I want some fun!” He shrugged “I don’t think I will get drunk but maybe a little tipsy” He smiled “I just want to be more relaxed I mean this is all suppose to be fun right?” He grinned. “Well if you can make it great, but no pressure, I mean its just people swimming, nothing major” He shrugged then watched him sip his wine. “Guess you are suppose to sip wine and not gulp it right?” He giggled then leaned back.

He was surprised at the kiss and blushed. “That is much better” He kissed back for the second kiss and sighed. “That does feel better I was asking about your back in case you needed another rub down” Or there is a hot tub thingy in this room, just no swimming trunks” He said softly. Then he winked. “So what does Felix want?” He touched his face softly. “I promise in the club I will call you falcon but in here can it be Felix?”

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